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November 29, 2004
thanksgiving
the morning of thanksgiving i realized that would be the first holiday meal i had with my parents since 2001. it was a great day. i love watching my parents play video games...my mom was very grateful for the xbox.
we had to do the mandatory look-at-photo-albums-over-dessert thing, and i found this cute picture of...well, me. my dad took one look at it and said that i better not post it on the internet (he doesn't even know about the blog) because of all the perverts that would get off on a little girl in R2D2 underoos. well, we all know that kids like to do the complete opposite of what their parents say so...
image has been removed because there are too many perverts out there in the internet world
plus, i figure all those perverts are my friends, right?
Posted by meloknee at 03:27 PM | Comments (4)
November 27, 2004
best day cont...
so i'm retarded and i had just done this entire entry and then i accidentally closed the browser and lost everything. i'm very determined to do this, but now i'm going to have to just do a re-cap cause i'm frustrated.
after i got the pics i went down the street and saw this cute boy playing drums: 
he was playing cause these guys (byc) were dancing: 
then i saw these freaks.
and then i went on saw i [heart] huckabees and kept asking "how am i not myself?"
then i went downtown to pick up the pictures of the guys dancing and ran into one of them and gave them all the pictures.
then i waited for the bus and read more fever pitch. then as i was getting on the bus a guy said "nice bottom, that is a nice bottom, you have a nice bottom." then i laughed a lot because i don't know anyone that uses the word "bottom."
then i came home and hung out with jeremy, and then i went to the summit and got drunk and listened to ken talk about how cute the picture of shannon is and how drunk he is. 
and for some reason, it was a really good day. it was really fun to not worry about who i had to see, what i had to do, where to go. it's fun being selfish.
(this was much more descriptive and interesting the first time around)
Posted by meloknee at 06:54 PM | Comments (0)
November 26, 2004
best day in seattle, ever.
today was probably one of the best days i've ever spent in seattle. after sleeping off two days worth of hangovers i got my lazy ass out of bed and decided to venture downtown. i knew full well the chaos that i would soon encounter, this being the busiest shopping day of the year and all. i had no idea, however, just how great it would all turn out.
all the buses were re-routed due to the parade/tree lighting, etc... so i had to get off a few stops early. i forced my way through the crowds and lines of little kids all dressed up to take pictures with the nordstrom santa clause (no other could possibly do). across from the line of little kids with pretentious parents was a line of protesters against the wearing of fur (which sent me into a long period of self-reflection over the fact that i have no problem wearing leather and eating meat but i would not in a million years wear fur).
the fur protesters were followed very closely by the jesus freaks.
i elbowed my way through the masses of people at westlake center to drop off a role of film (pics of the bloody nose catastrophe...don't worry andy, they didn't really turn out that well). after dropping off the film i went to enjoy a quiet lunch which i spent reading fever pitch (a book that is taking me entirely way too long to read for some reason).
after lunch i went to pick up my pictures. 
and the story of the rest of the best day will have to be continued because it's taking me too long and i've got other things to do, like eat food that ken's cooking for me.
Posted by meloknee at 10:34 PM | Comments (0)
November 24, 2004
streb
being up a little later than usual last night, i actually got to watch letterman, one of the few tv shows i enjoy watching. the guest performer was a group called streb. they were so funny, i couldn't stop laughing. all they did was jump straight towards a plexiglass wall and bounce off of it. then smash each other against the plexiglass and slide down the plexiglass...
i don't know if it was supposed to be funny; it's art. oh yeah, and trampoline jumping is an olympic sport...oh wait, it is. granted these people had mad jumping skills, i just didn't get it. i couldn't find any meaning or purpose, except to have fun. like when you were younger, maybe at a high school dance or carnival, and you put on one of those velcro suits and could run and jump against a wall and just hang there. i never considered myself as a "performer" per se when i was doing that...but maybe i was. maybe that was my true calling in life, velcro-wall jumping, and i missed it. damn.
Posted by meloknee at 08:42 AM | Comments (0)
November 22, 2004
thursday december 2nd
so maybe it's totally inappropriate to announce your divorce date, i don't know. but what can i say...i'm excited about it. i can't wait to officially be Melanie Davis again. so, yeah december 2nd, big celebration. one of my coworkers is so convinced that i'm not dealing with my true feelings over the entire situation that she has ordered me to take decemeber 2nd and 3rd off work in order to "reflect" on any emotions i may be feeling. so i'm going to do some serious reflection...over lots of drinks with lots of friends on thursday and over a really bad hangover on friday. seriously people, thanks for the concern and all, but really the only thing i feel bad about is that i don't feel bad.
oh and crazy mark says to me yesterday as he's dropping the aggie off, we should go get a beer after court. uh, no. we shouldn't. doesn't that sound like a fantastic plan...uh hi, i'm unhappy, you hook up with my friend, i don't want to be married anyway, we go to court, let's go out for drinks. i think i'll have to put my foot down on that one.
as for the fact that this may be totally inappropriate, it's fairly well known that i am pretty damn good at saying things that are totally uncalled for at the most inopportune times, so..
Posted by meloknee at 11:15 AM | Comments (0)
November 18, 2004
last night
some not so high quality pictures, but they're cute...(yes, i used the ellipsis)
Posted by meloknee at 11:00 AM | Comments (5)
November 16, 2004
crime
i was walking down the street today, coming up on the intersection of 4th and union when this guy ran past me with a tan jacket on and ear length curly brown hair. he barely made it across the street before the light changed. the only reason i really noticed was because he was kind of dirty and gross looking and he almost ran into me (and i didn't want to get dirty and gross). i didn't really think of it beyond that until after the light changed and i crossed in the opposite direction (he had ran across union on 4th, i crossed 4th on union) and headed towards wamu on 5th and union. as i was crossing the alley between 4th and 5th, the same guy comes running across the street towards me, it looked as though he had come from david lawrence. he had his tan jacket stuffed under his arm, with what appeared to be quite a bulge of something else underneath it. he also had a black beret on which he threw into the dumpster as he ran through the alley looking back over his shoulder.
i'm pretty sure he stole something. i don't know if that's jumping to conclusions or not, but why would you throw your black beret in the dumpster while running through an alley? no one came out to chase him down or anything, so i don't really know, but it did make my day a little more exciting. if only i were quicker on the draw with the camera...
Posted by meloknee at 02:21 PM | Comments (1)
November 11, 2004
deja vu
ever since "the divorce" i find myself reliving parts of my life. as though i'm trying to find where i lost it all, where i lost my drive, my ambition, the hopes and dreams that made me who i am. what happened to the poet, the reader, the girl who wanted nothing less than to get a doctorate degree and do something, something important.
i've been trying to go back to school and have been going through practically the same steps i've taken many times before. first i try to take the easiest way possible; just apply for the school right down the street from where i live. that makes life so simple, i could keep working (which means i wouldn't concentrate on school), keep my friends (which means i wouldn't concentrate on school), and be "comfortable."
then i start thinking and remembered that the reason i moved to seattle was to try and get in to the u-dub, but also to get the hell out of fresno and it was the only place i could convince mark to move. i had been trying to leave fresno since my sophomore year of college when i realized what a stupid mistake i'd made by staying there for school. so i enrolled at uri (yes, for some reason i wanted to move to rhode island...a childhood fascination) hoping that i would then go to risd. unfortunately, some stupid boy i was dating convinced me to stay for a couple more years. we broke up 2 months later.
now that my life is mine again, for the first time in so long, i have to retrain my brain to think as a person who can do anything they want. no one keeping me anywhere, no one to base my decisions on. i can move where i want, go to school where i want, and take out as many student loans as i damn well please. my mom keeps telling me how independent i am, how i stopped needing her as soon as i could feed myself. i don't feel independent anymore, but i sure want to.
so, i find myself looking at the same catalog i was looking at over 6 years ago, and that i looked at over three years ago, and i'm looking at it now, hopefully for one of the last times. the american library association catalog of accredited schools, as i flip through the pages and pull out the info sheets on the schools i'd want to go to, i get the feeling that they are all the exact same ones i looked at before. i probably still have all the information that i sent away for so many years ago. i'm not going to settle for going to the school down the street (not that it's a bad one), i'm only going there if that's the best place for me (or possibly if it's the only one that'll have me).
one more thing i'll do is rent party girl and have parker posey give me some much needed encouragement!
addendum:
i also sent in a volunteer application to spl today. i hope i pass the interview!
Posted by meloknee at 12:00 PM | Comments (0)
November 10, 2004
fresno
for all my fresno friends...can you believe this guy is so in love with fresno that he'd willingly go spend halloween at hobbs grove??
i wish i had been able to see all the good in it that he does, or not, because then i'd still live there.
Posted by meloknee at 01:55 PM | Comments (0)
seagull
this is my pet seagull named melanie. i don't really remember how the gull got named, but somehow, it stuck. melanie used to come and visit me every morning at my old office. when we were moving, my coworker (old man paul) and i were afraid she'd never find us. so, we made a sign giving melanie the new address of our office. low and behold about 4 months later i'm scared to death by the sound of something trying to break through the window right behind where i sit. melanie was sitting right on the ledge, trying to get my attention. i don't know what took her so long to find us...maybe she was mad that we left. i've never given her any food, but she comes back nearly every day. if i'm too busy to notice, she starts pecking (really hard) on the glass and leaves all these weird slobber marks all over the window (did you know birds slobber?). well, here she is:
Posted by meloknee at 09:15 AM | Comments (0)
November 09, 2004
a little moody
i don't know what to do. it's a really hard decision to make and i don't understand why the doctor can't do it for me. he says, "go home, look at your calendar and then just call in and make an appointment." i'm supposed to make a conscious decision of when i want to inflict a shitload of pain on myself. it seemed easy enough at first, right away, i thought, the sooner the better. the sooner i have surgery, the sooner i'll be back on my bike. but then there's the holidays, family coming to visit, i was supposed to go on a vacation, blech. i guess there is no good time to get cut open and be incapacitated for a few weeks really.
so yeah, i'm pretty depressed about the whole thing. i feel like a big fat slob not getting any exercise and all i want to do is eat cookies and french fries and feel sorry for myself. i haven't listened to so much coldplay and elliott smith in a long fuckin' time. i keep bitching out my coworkers so they sent me home. hopefully i won't get too addicted to the vicodin.
Posted by meloknee at 12:19 PM | Comments (4)
November 05, 2004
Obesity
"Hand luggage is one thing; love handles,
it seems, are another."
Posted by meloknee at 01:51 PM | Comments (2)
mel-oh-knee
i went to the doctor yesterday as many of you know. things aren't looking so good. the swelling has continued to go down, but it feels worse and worse each day. Not that the pain is getting worse, but just like something is not right. the latest prognosis?? well, not only do i not have an ACL (which i lost last december in a downhill skiing accident), there is now a good chance i have torn my MCL and meniscus.
i have an appointment on monday with the orthopedic surgeon. until then i'll be doing a lot of reading, halo2 playing, coffee drinking at top pot & beer drinking at the summit (all things within a one block radius of my apartment).
Posted by meloknee at 09:26 AM | Comments (0)
November 03, 2004
warning sign
as if today isn't bad enough already (you know, that little thing called the presidential election), i wake up with a knee the size of a...well maybe cantaloupe would be appropriate if say the normal size is an orange. so my suggestion is that places need to start putting up warning signs for people without ACLs.
yeah, so i'm pretty sure i now officially need knee surgery. the problem is, i've switched insurance since my last injury and i don't know how all that crap works.
damn, this really sucks. just when i was getting back in shape, all excited to buy my new bike that i already had picked out. i suppose i could be wrong, but i'm thinking i may have even torn another ligament.
how? i might as well just get it out there now, jumping off the bench at a table at no place other than the summit. yes, i had had a few beers, but not near enough to warrant this.
i think my doctor told me jumping was bad. i guess that's a warning. however, let this be a warning to you...laugh at my huge knee brace, you'll be wearing one too.
oh, and i forgot, thank you, jason, for getting me home safely.
Posted by meloknee at 08:56 AM | Comments (2)
November 01, 2004
help
can someone explain what all these things mean??
i know, i know, i'm the lamest blogger ever...i'll get better though.
Posted by meloknee at 10:02 AM | Comments (5)