November 09, 2004
a little moody
i don't know what to do. it's a really hard decision to make and i don't understand why the doctor can't do it for me. he says, "go home, look at your calendar and then just call in and make an appointment." i'm supposed to make a conscious decision of when i want to inflict a shitload of pain on myself. it seemed easy enough at first, right away, i thought, the sooner the better. the sooner i have surgery, the sooner i'll be back on my bike. but then there's the holidays, family coming to visit, i was supposed to go on a vacation, blech. i guess there is no good time to get cut open and be incapacitated for a few weeks really.
so yeah, i'm pretty depressed about the whole thing. i feel like a big fat slob not getting any exercise and all i want to do is eat cookies and french fries and feel sorry for myself. i haven't listened to so much coldplay and elliott smith in a long fuckin' time. i keep bitching out my coworkers so they sent me home. hopefully i won't get too addicted to the vicodin.
Posted by meloknee at 12:19 PM | Comments (4)
November 05, 2004
mel-oh-knee
i went to the doctor yesterday as many of you know. things aren't looking so good. the swelling has continued to go down, but it feels worse and worse each day. Not that the pain is getting worse, but just like something is not right. the latest prognosis?? well, not only do i not have an ACL (which i lost last december in a downhill skiing accident), there is now a good chance i have torn my MCL and meniscus.
i have an appointment on monday with the orthopedic surgeon. until then i'll be doing a lot of reading, halo2 playing, coffee drinking at top pot & beer drinking at the summit (all things within a one block radius of my apartment).
Posted by meloknee at 09:26 AM | Comments (0)